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lay me down so
to let you leave
tell me lies
wanna see your eyes
is it a crime to say
i still need you?
crime, wanna feed you

light blue, dark blue, grey
crimson trail
straight through, stay don’t stray

grandmother, juniper
tell to me your recipe
is it a cry I hear
from the deep wood?
cry, reappear from
the weeds

light blue, dark blue, gray
crimson trail
straight through, stay don’t stray

through the jail
see the sun
flat as a knife
cold and white
to my home, two rivers
through my home, two reverse
is it a crime to do
what you ask me to?
crime

fragilely, gradually and surrounding
the horse lies naked in the shed
evergreen anodyne decompounding
flies draw sugar from his head

his eyes are blueberries, video screens,
minneapolis schemes and the dried flowers
from books half-read

the juice of dark cherries cover his chin
the dog walks in and the crow lies in his
jaw like lead.

everything eats and is eaten
time is fed

early evening the pink ring swallows
the spherical marigold terrain
sleepily, venus sinks and hollows
the stationed headlight of a plane

you are as far from me as memory,
which fixtures fracture varyingly
the juice of dark cherries cover my
skin – six years in, no baby

everything eats and is eaten

ingydar bares a scar like a meteor
crystalline amber guilds her cheek
tambourine of the beech leaves lead her
to the raven playing hide and seek

drying blueberries, figurine of the angel leans
at the head of the bed
the juice of dark cherries cover my skin
the dog walks in and the crow lies in his smile like lead
everything eats and is eaten, time is fed

staring down the barrel of the hot sun
shining with the sheen of a shotgun
carol has a little if we need some
joa has a ride if we wanna come
hangin’ your jeans with a clothes pin
skin still wet, still on my skin
mango in your, juice drippin’
shoulder of your shirt sleeve slippin’

christmas eve with your mother and sis
don’t wanna fight, but your mother insists
dog’s white teeth slice right through my fist
drive to the ER and they put my on risk
grocery store list, now you get pissed
unchecked calls and messages
I don’t wanna be the owner of your fantasy
I just wanna be a part of your family

I don’t wanna talk about anything
I don’t wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss kiss your eyes again
wanna witness your eyes lookin
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving
lay in your lap when I’m crying

circle of pine and red oak, circle of moss and fire smoke
fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke
push the clutch and i pull the choke
wanna listen to the sound of you blinking
wanna listen to your hands soothe
listen to your heart beating
listen to the way you move

I don’t wanna talk about anything
I don’t wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss kiss your eyes again
wanna witness your eyes lookin
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving
lay in your lap when I’m crying

weren’t we the stars in heaven
weren’t we the salt in the sea
dragon in the new warm mountain
didn’t you believe in me?
You held me the whole way through
but I couldn’t see the words like you
I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to
I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to

I don’t wanna talk about anything
I don’t wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss kiss your eyes again
wanna witness your eyes lookin
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving
lay in your lap when I’m crying

over the dead sea keeping you company, thinking
i'm unafraid of you now, I’m unafraid of you now
letting my eyes close, shedding my soft clothes
wind blows, wind that howls like a hound
wind that laughs like a clown

mystery of lack stabbing stars through my back
forwards, beckon, rebound

virtual bedroom rise like a full moon show me
pictures that hang in your house pictures
that hang in your mouth

candescent insects crosses and fishnecks, i have
nothing to pray to you now, nothing to say to you now

mystery of lack stabbing stars 
through my back
forwards, beckon, rebound
pulling your face close, wanting the inmost, show me.
I’m not afraid of you now. I’m not afraid of you now.
Villain and Violent, infant and innocent, baby
both arms cradle you now, both arms

mystery of lack stabbing stars through my back
forwards, beckon, rebound
cemetery at night and
the dog’s in heat
the grey owl
howls, and you’re
probably right
believe in
better to be leavin’
oh

terrifying like a gun,
like a gun store
the wind road
invisible like a blank
ghost blanket
no trees bent
shakey like the first dance
shakey like the first time
our palms met,
in the clam sweat

heavy focus, focus

set the camera to the flash
for a portrait of the spirit
only way it’s gonna last
to be near it

heavy focus, focus
focus, focus
focus, kiss
focus, fokiss
shadow shadow what a show
every other strap there’s a crosseyed crow
half return, half return
Minneapolis, soft white snow
35 bridge, hometown
half return, half return

standing in the yard
dressed like a kid
the house is white and
the lawn is dead the lawn is dead the lawn is dead

Illinois toll road Indiana plain
roll the windows down shoot out the change, half return half return
honey in your mouth
when you gave me my name
tears in your eyes when you pull it like a chain
half return, half return

standing in the yard
dressed like a kid the house white and
the lawn is dead the lawn is dead the lawn is dead

half return, half return
rusty swing set, plastic slide, push me up and down
take me for a ride
standing in the yard, dressed like a kid, the house is white and
the lawn is dead the lawn is dead the lawn is dead
come help me die, my daughter
walk me beside the river to the beech
take a branch with your knife
take my left with your right

don’t be afraid, my girl, take me into the shore
i'm not cold, i'm not cold
take my hand take ahold

let me lie on your arms
i am weightless in the sea
up to my ears the salt sits
in a circle around me
take my life into your life
take a branch with your knife

come help me die,
my daughter
what a dream that was
i almost couldn’t wake because
i was frozen in bed with a zombie girl
vacant as a closed-down fair

sleep paralysis, sworn i could’ve felt you there
and i almost could’ve kissed your hair
but the emptiness withdrew me
from any kind of wishful prayer

oh, emptiness
tell me ‘bout your nature
maybe i've been getting you wrong
i cover you with questions
cover you with explanations
cover you with music

then the next night
dreaming i could feel your skin
but the dream escaped so easily
and i woke up to the road again

how your words ring through
something kind of sweet and blue
and i knew that you’d been understanding
everything that i'd said too

about emptiness
tell me about your nature
maybe i've been getting you wrong
i cover you with questions, explanations, music

what’s on your mind, what’s on your mind?
through your eyes i see
the smile you bring to me
to your joy i tether

not a lot, just forever
intertwined, sewn together
like the rock bears the weather
not a lot, just forever

my dog barks wildly
to protect my infancy
from my ex-believer
i try to calm the wolf
to remind her i am both
still, she tears at my sweater

not a lot, just forever
intertwined, sewn together
as the wren sheds her feather
not a lot, just forever

your dearest fantasy
is to grow a baby in me
i could be a good mother
and i want to be your wife
so i hold you to my knife
and i steal your letter

not a lot, just forever
intertwined sewn together
as the rock bears the weather
not a lot just forever

so, i bash around the house
the poison stains my mouth
she comes, i let her and
we share a paradise (pair of dice)
i roll them once or twice
can’t get much better

not a lot, just forever
intertwined sewn together
as the rock bears the weather
not a lot just forever
freezing at the edge of the bed
chewing a cigarette and repeating
shadows of words i said
i don’t wanna blame you
i don’t wanna blame

stars bloom in the warm summer night
they have a clear view
without the bedroom light
they don’t wanna name you
they don’t want a name

dragons have silent eyes
cracked eggshells, fireflies
i don’t wanna tame you
i don’t wanna tame

when the hot sand burns my feet
you have cool hands, you are sweet
i don’t wanna change you
i don’t wanna change

carnations into the case
unfold your clothes, out of the case
i just want a place with you
i just want a place

as the coastline is shaped by the wind
as we make love and you’re on my skin
you are changing me,
you are changing

stars bloom
on a warm summer night
they have a clear view
without the bedroom light
i just want a place with you
i just want a place
step over the edge too far
open my hands to catch a wall
nothing to hear but my very own cry
far below the rock and sky
my angel
my angel

strange as she appears to be,
(she is my) oldest friend invisibly
she brushes my hair with a physical hand,
lowers my body down to the land
my angel
my angel

beneath the ledge in the morning mist
she kisses my eyelids and my wrists
wake to the bleeding of the blade of the sun
returning to my oxygen
my angel
my angel



abysskiss
warm

so warm

screaming in the field

as i was born

 
worm,

will you return me

to the robin’s beak?

i’ll be a bird

 
terminal

we both know

let the rest of me go

see my death become a trail

and the trail leads to a flower

i will blossom in your sail

every dreamed and 

waking hour


woman,

woman

hold me in your heat

till i remember 


terminal

we both know

let me rest, let me go

see my death become a trail

and the trail leads to a flower

i will blossom in your sail

every dreamed and 

waking hour

no one can be my man be my man be my man 

be my man be my man be my man

no one can be my woman be my woman

be my woman


one ear to the ground

one dog at my neck

one tongue to my tongue

wanting to protect me 
 

from

 
no one can be my man be my man be my man 

be my man be my man be my man be my man

no one can be my woman be my woman

be my woman


one ear to the floor 

my dog barking loud

couldn’t tell for sure

where the screaming sound 

was coming

 
from
 

one ear to your womb

puppy on the floor

baby's coming soon

wonder if she’ll know

where she's come

from 

seven wide years

and there’s soil to till

when you thread your fingers through i feel quite well

we could be the riptide or two mountains growing still
 

when the eye gets heavy in the womb
 

dripping your tears 

like a precious warm spring

my heart will always find you when your heart freely sings

mine would never bind you with a diamond or a word

 
when the eye gets heavy in the womb

when the eye gets heavy in the womb

 
woman, mighty woman

you’re a friend i need

when you hold me to your breast you’re bleeding as i bleed

please reveal the question to me let the answers leave

when the eye gets heavy in the womb

when the eye gets heavy in the womb

when the eye gets heavy in the womb

when the eye gets heavy in the womb 

it cannot be explained

like a single membrane 

same old dream from the pillow


laugh along with her laugh

lying when she’s lying 

she gets angry i feel so


is it any wonder i get lonesome for you?

get out of your mind
 

demons are the dragons 

she is not a dragon

but i’m afraid of her fire
 

my heart is a wagon

my heart is a wagon

but i can’t push her desire


is it any wonder i get lonesome for you?

get out of your mind

annie, my love pulls the trigger on you

get out of your mind

and into my arms 

cradle more

the hours reel

cradle more

how you feel


baby you’re still too proud to come down

maybe i’m still too loud to hear

all the waves ascend and disappear
 

like a storm,

the air you steal

glacial form

the icy heel


baby you’re still too proud to come down

maybe i’m still too loud to hear

all the waves ascend and disappear
 

earth is born 

to wound and heal

cradle more 

the hours reel

 
baby you’re still too proud to come down

maybe i’m still too loud to hear

all the waves ascend and disappear

fly make flea make haste make waste eight makes infinity 

times i’ve tried to make breaks, embrace for the enemy

meet my face to face time try to find the diamond

counting time as time counts me, the river to the island

 

do you not do you not tell

that smile always makes me well

do you see circling through?

that’s how one returns from two 

 

the symbol of your love is time

the symbol of your love is time

blue and red horses on the run

i think the angel is jumping the gun

little red lantern watching my son

maybe the angel is jumping the gun

 
i’m a lot of boy, with a lot of nerve

do you wanna toy with me?


little red flower on your wrist

maybe the angel fired and missed

little red flower on your wrist 

maybe the angel fired and missed
 

i’m a lot of boy with a lot of nerve

do you wanna toy with me?
 

little red forest in your room

i hope the angel is getting here soon

little red forest in your room

i hope the angel is getting here soon
 

i’m a lot of boy with a lot of nerve

do you wanna toy with me?

try and get some rest

i’ll do the rest

think to what the roses find

with the arms of passion 

this is how we fashion 

war’s worried mind

in the hour i loved you 

like it dream it was true

in the base of my pine


wilderness, vast abyss, will we ever kiss?
 

in her mother's fortress she was brushing horses

manes and tails flicking flies

naked as the window

baby if it’s real,

so no need to apologize
 

wilderness, vast abyss, will we ever kiss?
 

love is on her shoulder, love is on the boulder

in the eyes, in the eye

love never leaves, love is the leaves 

in the sky in the sky 

what  can  you  say  to  remind  me  

how  to  be  loved  by  you?

wave  to  the  winding  river

it’s  a  view  of  you

for  the  long  grass  growing  in  silence

there’s  an  equal  knowing  inside  us

calmly  showing  for  to  guide  us
 

pray  you  can  find  me  

i’ve  been  busy  turning  into

more  transparent

i  could  look  a  lot  like  you

for  the  sharp  glass  cutting  of  the  cold  wind  

the  sharp  glass  loosing  of  your  best  friend

the  story  bruising  as  it’s  written
 

rain  in  your  bedroom

this  is  how  i  love  you  back

to  follow  the  red  moon

follow  her  and  never  look  back

there’s  a  star  that’s  glowing  on  your  eyelash

and  the  wet  light  moaning  as  we  rehash

oh  my  darling

what  can  you  say  to  remind  me

how  to  be  loved  by  you?

to die in your arms

your words forming again

we kiss very hard and wild
 

to rise in the dark 

like birds praying on skin

we pray with our oxygen

 
 

Jo, nothing is real

we still have that feel

you’re closing up the bar

i’m warming up the car

ten miles away

  

two children of ours

they came twirling in

we laughed very hard for a while 

they’ve grown very far

and tall

how we miss them, 

though happy they’re traveling

 
Jo, nothing is real

but we still have that feel

you’re closing up the bar

i’m warming up the car

ten miles away

 
we set no alarm

eyes wide, six a.m.

wake up on the farm

slowly

walk to the barn

horse feed

you take the yarn

i’ll read, i’ll read
 

Jo, nothing is real

but we still have that feel

you’re closing up the bar

i’m warming up the car 

ten miles away


to die in your arms,

your words forming again